how to blew out your face from my eyes??

It will have been 3 years from your gone..too much things i've done, too much people i've met, but i never find what i'm looking for.. 

I really wanna move on from this stuck.. I need to wake up from this burial. But why is your face always seen at my eyes?? and even i've never forgot that time  when you're gone..

You've been gone and leave me these memories which I don't wanna remember, cause it just makes me so mad. 

Please, help me to blew out your face from my eyes.. I'm never happy here..

I need you actually, but I know it will never happen..

i've gone mad, yeah, i've gone mad..

like the Bruno Mars song : Talking to the Moon

I know you're somewhere out there, somewhere far away

I want you back, I want you back

my neighbors think I'm crazy, but they don't understand

you're all I had, you're all I had

at night when the stars light up my room, I sit by myself

talking to the moon, try to get to you

in hope you're on the other side talking to me too

or am I a  fool who sits alone, talking to the moon

 I'm feeling like I'm famous to talk of the town

I've gone mad, yeah I've gone mad

but they don't know what I know

cause when the sun goes down someone's talking back

yeah they're talking back

cause every night I'm talking to the moon, still try to get to you

in hope you're on the other side talking to me too

or am I a fool who sits alone talking to the moon??

REST IN PEACE [ 09-09-88 _ 10-10-10 ]

 A.R.P.P

I will never forgetting you, we'll meet at eternity..

me at 24

just a little thing at my 24th birthday

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I start this day with many problems, but I take a few times to talk to my Father, Jesus Christ, to give thanks for all He's done to me, to all of His love, patient, and guidance at me, all the way I've walked, all the time I've passed. Every single breath I take, every problem I have, every single wish I pray, I take it all to His leg as my offer to Him. Because He's the one who always be my side, never leave me alone, even though I leave Him first. Thank you my Lord.

 

At my 24 today, I'm still not enough to be called as an "adult" yet, even though my old said like that.. (whoooppzz).. in fact, I'm still not be a mature woman yet. I feel like I'm just 17, haha.. well, I guess I have a privilege of that :)

I have to be a really mature woman in many aspects of my life. I still have to reach many goals in life that some of them I haven't reached yet. I have to finish my study and got my second scholar, which I'd already got the first one three years ago. And I still want to take master degree after I graduate from my study, cause I wanna be a health worker and also lecturer in university of health..wish me luck.. :)

My next desire is to held marriage with my fiance at Lorin Hotel Solo.. but, I'm still waiting for my fiance and I don't even know what the time he will come to me..we've separated already, by the distance and time of course.. OMG.. hehehe...

And the next, for my future I hope I've been given two baby from God, but its depend on God if He gives me more, I can just give thanks..  :)

Well, I think that's all. Because if I mention all of my desire, it may take all day long cause my desires are as many as dust in the sky.. It's really humanly, isn't it?  :D

 C' ya..

regards

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